Hmm.. just suddenly felt like writing out what's in my mind.. just sitting down with my chemistry notes in front of me and my laptop.. well i havent been studying much these few days.. so i guess i hv to really buck up. cant lazy anymore. aih.
Actually Erm i wanted to reply a comment in friendster to one of my fren.. but i dunno something just stopped me when I began to type my first sentence. Then i just stopped typing and decided not to reply that comment.. uh weird. Its alrd 2.06am. and i m not feeling sleepy yet coz i drank coffee... i msged a few ppl but no one replied.. guess all slept alrd.
What should i do to fill up all my time during the hols? shuld i give tuition to my mum's fren and earn some money ? just an option.. hmm... or just relax ? aihh..
okay .. i shuld continue studying..
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Friday, May 23, 2008
I already made my choice...
This is something different from the previous post.. even though both of it is written on the same day and same time..
I am still thinking bout the post i wrote last time.. the one where i said..
" sometimes it's worth it if you sacrifice for the one you love just for the sake of his/her good. "
yea it is obviously a good thing to do if you're doing it for the sake of his good.. but its really easy to say..
Think about it.. to give up something that you really love.. or something that you might already have in hand.. you just have no choice but to release it.. you have to lie to him/her that you didnt want anything to do with the person anymore but actually in deep in your heart you love that person .. you care about that person.. but yet you just have let it go... so that you wont hurt the person .. so that the person will have a better life.. Is it really worth it letting the person go and let yourself and the person suffer... ? You really wish to tell the person what's actually happening and have the person by your side.. but you just cant do so and so because of that.. time and time you shut him down again and again when the person tries to approach you and to find out what's happening. .... Does it actually worth it?
Or by sharing the pain and the hardships together with the person eventhough knowing that there'll be no future between you two? that you cant give the person happiness in life? By sharing with the person .. you'll not have to suffer the loss of each other.. and probably go thru the pain and problems together? Which way is better?
Is sacrificing yourself for the sake of the person's future a better way or is by sharing all the probs and pain wif the person is a better way? I still couldnt really find my answer on which is better...
but for me... If i ever end up in a situation where I have to make a choice between the either ways ... I already know which way I'll be taking.. and i have no doubt about my choice..
I believe that it doesnt matter whether the length of time that both of you are together is long or short or whether both of you will live long together a not.. the thing that matters the most is the time both of you spent together.. That's most important. The happy moments and all the obstacles that both of you had passed thru together is what matters most. There's no use if both of you spend most of the time together but not being happy. You can never bring away a person .. but you can always bring happy memories that both of you spent together... That's what I always believed.
I am still thinking bout the post i wrote last time.. the one where i said..
" sometimes it's worth it if you sacrifice for the one you love just for the sake of his/her good. "
yea it is obviously a good thing to do if you're doing it for the sake of his good.. but its really easy to say..
Think about it.. to give up something that you really love.. or something that you might already have in hand.. you just have no choice but to release it.. you have to lie to him/her that you didnt want anything to do with the person anymore but actually in deep in your heart you love that person .. you care about that person.. but yet you just have let it go... so that you wont hurt the person .. so that the person will have a better life.. Is it really worth it letting the person go and let yourself and the person suffer... ? You really wish to tell the person what's actually happening and have the person by your side.. but you just cant do so and so because of that.. time and time you shut him down again and again when the person tries to approach you and to find out what's happening. .... Does it actually worth it?
Or by sharing the pain and the hardships together with the person eventhough knowing that there'll be no future between you two? that you cant give the person happiness in life? By sharing with the person .. you'll not have to suffer the loss of each other.. and probably go thru the pain and problems together? Which way is better?
Is sacrificing yourself for the sake of the person's future a better way or is by sharing all the probs and pain wif the person is a better way? I still couldnt really find my answer on which is better...
but for me... If i ever end up in a situation where I have to make a choice between the either ways ... I already know which way I'll be taking.. and i have no doubt about my choice..
I believe that it doesnt matter whether the length of time that both of you are together is long or short or whether both of you will live long together a not.. the thing that matters the most is the time both of you spent together.. That's most important. The happy moments and all the obstacles that both of you had passed thru together is what matters most. There's no use if both of you spend most of the time together but not being happy. You can never bring away a person .. but you can always bring happy memories that both of you spent together... That's what I always believed.
Something that i learnt .. today..
No matter how hard or how suffering are you .. or no matter how bad is the thing or situation that you're going to face .... They don't come to you for no reason. Each and every problems or hardships that you faced... every one of them come to you for a reason. No matter what the outcome is.. It just depend on how you face it..
After you had went thru everything... eventhough the outcome is the worst.., when you look back at it.. you will feel like everything was like a nightmare.. and you'll feel that there's still things for you to cherish.. and there you see brightness again. Its not that bad after all.. there's still smething worth for you to fight on for.. and that's the thing that will drive you on in your life..
After you had went thru everything... eventhough the outcome is the worst.., when you look back at it.. you will feel like everything was like a nightmare.. and you'll feel that there's still things for you to cherish.. and there you see brightness again. Its not that bad after all.. there's still smething worth for you to fight on for.. and that's the thing that will drive you on in your life..
Monday, May 19, 2008
Sorry ya...
sorry ya ppl... nowadays having exam thats why got no time updating =) i'll update again after my exams ^^
Sunday, May 11, 2008
Not one of the Sunday that i enjoyed...
I just felt that... I actually doesnt have anything... even after so long and after putting so many efforts. This is not the first time for something like this. I had experienced it many times already. Time and time i didnt give up and yet i try again. And time and time again i put hope in it even after how many times of failures. The worse thing is that every single time.. i couldnt manage to pass through the last stage. Why am i always given the hope at the beginning by succeeding in first few stages but end up empty handedness? Am i always this unlucky or am i just not qualified enough to get it? If i am not qualified then why give me hope at the beginning?
I m just fed up of it.. Seriously.! I dont have mood at all now. Tomorrow i am having my maths mock. I just dont feel like touching the books anymore. I really feel like talking to someone now.. but i dunt know how..
I m just fed up of it.. Seriously.! I dont have mood at all now. Tomorrow i am having my maths mock. I just dont feel like touching the books anymore. I really feel like talking to someone now.. but i dunt know how..
Friday, May 9, 2008
Wish everyday could be Friday...
Its so nice if everyday is like Friday.. The end of the weekdays, ... ending classes earlier, .. less stressful, and Going to Midvalley for movie.. Its okay rite to reward myself wif some entertainments after a whole week of suffering of mock exams... I guess its not too much la.. reasonable..hmm.
Erm.. Lets start with this morning.. Reached college kinda late and went to DSA. Had a pool game with Hyqal. I lost. Probably too long din touch the cue stick adi. Had been playing too much foosball nowadays. Then Kenny came in to DSA and said .. THERE'S NO MATHS. haha MDm. Lin is not teaching today.. haha sorry la tung din manage to msg u in time to tell you about that.. coz i didnt noe u msged me. Since she's not teaching, so i went in to class late. erm.. didnt had mood doing any work.. Brain's just not working. After maths went for lunch in Heaven.. (Kieth's Heaven ) haha yup for ppl who dunt know what's "Heaven", well its the restaurant.. Rice Bowl. Heard of it? erm he named it that becoz according to him, the duck rice is fantastic there. o.O .. k ignore it..
Then, we had our chem class. Get bk my chem results.. It isnt good at all.. expected higher, but It was actually my fault. I didnt remember her notes properly.. Yea will read more.. Promise. Cant get so low again. Then afterthat, we went mid v for Iron man. Well, the movie is quite nice and it was pretty interesting but we were all almost freezing. The plot of the movie was nice. I'll watch 2nd time if got chance.. Then we had lunch in an Irish Restaurant. I dunt really noe wats the name of the restaurant actually but the food there was nice.
haha.. we played some games there.. dunno wat police, murderer and the spy. sumting like tat. And tung, I gave up la on the counting sheeps. haha how to count?? teach me..
I enjoyed today. Had been locking myself in room for days to study and yet didnt get good grades. Sad..
And ya today i went to CF. It was nice. Its my third time there. I felt comfortable everytime when I am there. And today's session was really meaningful. Why should we do services? And every lil things we do everyday in our life is for who? Who are we doing it for? Ourselves? We had about 10 mins in silence thinking what can we dedicate to God in our lives. It was really meaningful. I am sorry if i use the wrong words. But it was really a meaningful session.
Okay I'll stop writing here. Thx for reading. Bye..
Erm.. Lets start with this morning.. Reached college kinda late and went to DSA. Had a pool game with Hyqal. I lost. Probably too long din touch the cue stick adi. Had been playing too much foosball nowadays. Then Kenny came in to DSA and said .. THERE'S NO MATHS. haha MDm. Lin is not teaching today.. haha sorry la tung din manage to msg u in time to tell you about that.. coz i didnt noe u msged me. Since she's not teaching, so i went in to class late. erm.. didnt had mood doing any work.. Brain's just not working. After maths went for lunch in Heaven.. (Kieth's Heaven ) haha yup for ppl who dunt know what's "Heaven", well its the restaurant.. Rice Bowl. Heard of it? erm he named it that becoz according to him, the duck rice is fantastic there. o.O .. k ignore it..
Then, we had our chem class. Get bk my chem results.. It isnt good at all.. expected higher, but It was actually my fault. I didnt remember her notes properly.. Yea will read more.. Promise. Cant get so low again. Then afterthat, we went mid v for Iron man. Well, the movie is quite nice and it was pretty interesting but we were all almost freezing. The plot of the movie was nice. I'll watch 2nd time if got chance.. Then we had lunch in an Irish Restaurant. I dunt really noe wats the name of the restaurant actually but the food there was nice.
haha.. we played some games there.. dunno wat police, murderer and the spy. sumting like tat. And tung, I gave up la on the counting sheeps. haha how to count?? teach me..
I enjoyed today. Had been locking myself in room for days to study and yet didnt get good grades. Sad..
And ya today i went to CF. It was nice. Its my third time there. I felt comfortable everytime when I am there. And today's session was really meaningful. Why should we do services? And every lil things we do everyday in our life is for who? Who are we doing it for? Ourselves? We had about 10 mins in silence thinking what can we dedicate to God in our lives. It was really meaningful. I am sorry if i use the wrong words. But it was really a meaningful session.
Okay I'll stop writing here. Thx for reading. Bye..
Sunday, May 4, 2008
Exams exams exams....
Hey.. Here i am again writing.. It has been quite some time i wrote the last post.. and yea hey Rui En ! u just noe about my blog :)
erm.. yup today i m writing here again wif exams mood in my brain again.. I am having exam tomorrow till thursday.. horrible. Physics unit 1 and 2 / Chem unit 1 and 2 mocks. in 4 days... gone. I seriously have no idea how to divide or manage my time in preparing for the 4 papers... is either i will screw up 2 papers or i will screwed up all ... aih. aih the real exam is coming.. Pressure.. and the jpa results coming out also.. Hope for the best.. but lets think logically .. if i ever get it .. i mean IF.. i reali dunt know i will accept it a not.. 1st thing- i think i choose the wrong field.. i dunt realli want biotech engineering actually .. i was so stupid to press that .. aih. Honestly i prefer doctor.. but i dun think my parents will encourage me taking doc also.. so yea. 2nd thing- i'll miss here.. and i alrd started my A-Lvls here. i noe its stupid for not accepting if i ever ever get... but aih dunno la. I am just dreaming.. sry ya.. I mean if i get.. which i probably wont get.. Think about it later la.. exam now.. i m so dead la.. i haven finish all my revision.. great >< aih and i m like so restless here.. haha And i slept at 5am yesterday! haha amazing rite? nah i didnt woke up late.. i woke up at 10.30.. (thats not very late la) today erm.. i'll sleep at 3am =)
okay other things... I am kinda getting used to it in my new house here.. its been a week and more I am here.. lesser TV coz i dun hv TV .. aih. hv to go upstairs to watch.. And yup if ever anyone want to go to HELP prom... i have a ticket here.. and i m selling it.. It will definitely be cheaper than rm130 which they are selling now..
aih thats probably all i want to say this time.. gd luck to those who are also sitting for their exams..! bye ! and elaine gd luck for ur sejarah. BYE
erm.. yup today i m writing here again wif exams mood in my brain again.. I am having exam tomorrow till thursday.. horrible. Physics unit 1 and 2 / Chem unit 1 and 2 mocks. in 4 days... gone. I seriously have no idea how to divide or manage my time in preparing for the 4 papers... is either i will screw up 2 papers or i will screwed up all ... aih. aih the real exam is coming.. Pressure.. and the jpa results coming out also.. Hope for the best.. but lets think logically .. if i ever get it .. i mean IF.. i reali dunt know i will accept it a not.. 1st thing- i think i choose the wrong field.. i dunt realli want biotech engineering actually .. i was so stupid to press that .. aih. Honestly i prefer doctor.. but i dun think my parents will encourage me taking doc also.. so yea. 2nd thing- i'll miss here.. and i alrd started my A-Lvls here. i noe its stupid for not accepting if i ever ever get... but aih dunno la. I am just dreaming.. sry ya.. I mean if i get.. which i probably wont get.. Think about it later la.. exam now.. i m so dead la.. i haven finish all my revision.. great >< aih and i m like so restless here.. haha And i slept at 5am yesterday! haha amazing rite? nah i didnt woke up late.. i woke up at 10.30.. (thats not very late la) today erm.. i'll sleep at 3am =)
okay other things... I am kinda getting used to it in my new house here.. its been a week and more I am here.. lesser TV coz i dun hv TV .. aih. hv to go upstairs to watch.. And yup if ever anyone want to go to HELP prom... i have a ticket here.. and i m selling it.. It will definitely be cheaper than rm130 which they are selling now..
aih thats probably all i want to say this time.. gd luck to those who are also sitting for their exams..! bye ! and elaine gd luck for ur sejarah. BYE
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