Thoughts....

After hearing wat Alex told me that day when we were in Mid Valley, I had been thinking a lot. Talking bout that kind of feeling, to be honest I do wish i can feel that feeling now but I know these kind of things can never be rushed or hurried. I do have interest in a person but i know things wouldnt work the way i want if i ever make a move. I just dont know how. Yea maybe like wat Tim said, it's just not the time yet. I feel nice whenever I talk to her but i know tht i wouldnt have any hope becoz of certain reasons. I just lost all the courage to make any moves or maybe just get to know her more. I dunno why.

Erm just an emo post... ignore it.

Boring Day... uh.

aih.. ya la update.. but nowadays seriously dun hv the urge or so called mood to update...
nothing much that had happened these few days... just the normal me.. in college ..going for classes.. playing foosball... and yeah..( my hand is blue black thx to foosball... ) lols... too much of foosball these few weeks... but yeah nth interesting...
today is sunday... and i m stuck at home.. doing nth.. watched a dvd and now i am sleepy. Well i cant be sleeping becoz i guess i havent touch any of my notes.. for a few days alrd. so instead of sleeping i end up facing my Chem notes and the comp .. lets hope i can concentrate yea... haha.
erm Tomorrow is monday again. aih boring and sleepy monday. Class starts at 8 and wat make it worst is that the first class is BIO... but luckily its practical class so ... will be doing experiment instead. My class mates say that on tue there will be chem exam. aih ( well this shows why I am holding my chem notes rite.? haha ) but lets again hope that there is no exam.
Holidays are coming again! hahah.. erm in two weeks time? haha... hols again.. but i think this hols will not be as fun as the past 1 month hols.. this time we only have bout 3 weeks..
2 weeks time for hols.... it also means that 2 weeks time for our exam results.. aih results. How's my result? i duno... aih dun want to think about it.
okay la that probably all i want to say for now...

What's in My Mind Now..

Erm once again its been a long time since the last time i blogged...
Well the main reason why I am blogging now again its because too many things are in my mind now... and i really just feel like letting it out...
The 2nd semester had only just began and I am alrd so stressed up... aih.
The 1st week of this sem is fully filled wif talks on application for university for future studies, for nx year when we finish our A levels. Well to those who alrd have in mind on wat course they are going to study in after A Levels will probably not face much problems now.
But for me... is the other way round. Now is alrd like end of july and its alrd the 2nd sem... , where its the time to decide on which uni to apply for the course you are interested. But me... I dun even have a stand or decision on what course do i want to study in the future..
So without deciding on which course to study, HOW am i suppose to apply to the universities???
I cant make up my mind.... After hearing from so many ppl... I just cant decide on which one i want.
Should I really choose based on what i am most interested in or based on what's best for me in the future??? Will I regret if make a choice based on job opportunities and based on what's best for me in the future?? Will it work well for me? If i ever choose based on what i am interested in ... will i be able to have a good future in that particular field?? aih... wish someone can answer all these and tell me....
Yea another thing is ... the deadline to apply to Oxford and Cambridge is like so fast... I got no idea whether should i rush my time and go apply ... and write my CV and personal statement in hurry just to apply for that..?? or i should just forget bout it and apply for other universities instead?? I am afraid if i will miss out this chance... but its not like i will get it rite... aih. wtv la.. i still cant come out wif an answer..
Kay i know its a bit too stupid to think of this thing now.. when i alrd have so many unsettled questions in my mind... but it just cant get off my mind today.. only today k... i dunno how to use the right word to describe it... but is just that i dunno why i just always cant get the right one.. I seriously dunno. I am not rushing but is just that when i see my friends who are so happy together..there's a feeling..I dunno how to explain it but i guess its understandable.. and is like eventhough i see a person who is nice and maybe some friends of mine who is nice.. i'll end up just saying bout it to like my fren or either i'll jst keep it to myself. Yea not to say that I should act or sumting.. but is just that I just duno how to react or like make a move to get to know the person and even like the person i know a lot ... I'll end up giving up and move on just because i didnt want to know the truth... so wat's wrong wif me?? aih... nvm . This thought shouldnt even come out at the first place...
kay i have to do my work alrd... thats all for tonite..

BirthdayS =)

Okay sorry again for not updating much. :) erm i'll keep this short... write a longer one nx time.. k well my birthday had jst passed and this mean whose one is it now?? haha who else? TUNG... Happy Birthday EMERENE TUNG MAY WAN =) erm wel well... wish u have a happy and fun birthday .. haha it was like yesterday only u wished me and now its my turn.. haha.. cool rite. okay la.. so i see you tomorrow la k? =) May all your wishes come true... and May God bless you a save and wonderful year ahead.. =)

Langkawi Trip !..

Hey ... sorry ppl.. didnt have much time blogging nowadays. haha and i noe a lot of ppl have been complaining that my blog is lack of pictures in it.. haha. Ok ok ppl.. this time i'll upload PICTURES... and dun blame me for late ya... blame yoe! all the pics were wif her .. i just got it today.. so yup.. =)

Here it is =)

The night before the trip I didnt really sleep. I slept like at around 2 plus and have to wake up at 5 in the morning. hmm.. haha was half blur when my clock rang. Everyone was suppose to meet at my house at around 6 plus... if not mistaken. haha and Alex is the first one who reached. He told me the night before that he was going to be late but end up he was the first. Follow on by Yoe and Phoon. haha that phoon sure cant woke up late..

Well, we left our house early and my sis's husband fetched us there. Well the BIGGEST joke was that.. the day before Yoe mistaken our airport.. Smart her. Our airport was suppose to be the Terminal LCCT in KLIA .. but instead of that she told us was the old airport in Subang Jaya.. lol. but we manage to get there also. Had breakfast in Mc D before boarding the plane.

Lexy and Phoon ... Omg Let me warn u .. Never sit in front of ALEX in the Plane.. Or u will suffer.... You dont wanna know.. hahaha

She forced me to take this.. haha ...xD

That's in the plane. The Plane looks okay inside.. =)

Yoe's Dad pick us up in Langkawi's airport and we rent a Sentra i think. Phoon drove. haha and yoe and alex were shouting behind.. ( it wasnt that bad la.. give her chance la ) we manage to reach our hotel safely though.. so counted job done for her.. lol.. thats our hotel..

Look at her.. xD creepy smile.. hehe

What's he doing?? lol...

Psp session... was deciding on where to go.. was playing Metal Slug.. haha

haha.. finally we decided to go to the pool instead of the beach.. ( we chose the pool in Langkawi and not the beach?? ) crazy us.. haha... Sorry there's no pool pic.. Cameras were prohibited from that area.. haha kidding. Just that no one took for us.. There's a bar by the pool.. we ordered some cocktails. It didnt taste nice... Fast forward.. and its dinner time. All of us were starving. We went to the Harbour Park for diner.. the scenery and view there was magnificent during the evening... The yatch there was very nice.. We had barbeque dinner.. And again the dinner was superb.. aha (thx to this tour guide rite xD )

The yatch i was talking about... not only this...

LOok how calm is the water... Honest it looks much nicer in real...

Random one... =)

Okay this is how they serve u.. there are lots kind of food.. Fish, Lamb, Beef, sausages and bla bla... couldnt remember.. u can eat how many you want ..=) that's the fun part.. hahaha erm the meal cost each of us rm 53 each... so total around rm200 plus... but honestly it's worth it... Not kidding.. =) even that hungry alex.. admit it.. haha

An after meal picture =)

Went to the Sunba after that.. Erm the environment wasnt that nice inside.. There was no one inside when we came in.. probably it was too early ... 10pm. .. ordered some drinks.. drank tequila.. but was fine la.. it wasnt dat strong.. played pool.. but unfornately I lost.. -.-

In the bar..... its empty in the bar thats why we could take tis pic.. =)


Camwhoring... I wonder why my shirt shines.. xD

What were we doing?? haha guess? We were imitating the statue on top of us.. That green bag wasnt mine xD Dun ask... haha Phoon's one...

That's probably the end for the first day.. Well I'll just keep it short for the 2nd day.. Went shopping in Kuah Town.. Oh talking bout shopping... Four of us spent around rm700 buying the duty free stuff there.. thats alot.. I din get myself much things as most of my money was used to buy stuff for my parents... sad. K then we went for a road side stall .. Ate cendol, rojak and laksa.. The cendol was nice .. but the wind was nicer.. haha..

Look how they look... It clearly shows they are enjoying themselves.. buying choco ..while cutting a hole in their pocket ... hahaha xD

This is the cendol store... the food is not bad.. Look at our hairs.. haha Flying ..

This was during dinner... had seafood. Crabs, Prawns, Fish, CLamps, Vege.. total rm99 .. cheap isnt it?? the food was quite okay also... worth it worth it... i remember alex ordering 3 bowls of rice also.. haha

This is the drinks we bought back to hotel... Erm it was cheap so we bought it for the games..haha Alex was kinda drunk. He had 5 cups of wine.. becoz we were playing some Indian poker game.. He lost most of the time.. haha pity him. The wine was only rm 28 and it tasted okay =) wats kampai? i have no idea... just some drinks... haha

hahaha.. the consequences of the 5 cups of wine... LOok at him...

Family pic... haha... Last few pics before we leave the Hotel room.... ( what's wif alex horny smile?) =]

Okay... the final few pictures... We went for spa before we left.. not really spa la.. foot reflexology.. haha rm 39 ... for 40 minutes i guess.. a pondan looked guy help me and alex massage...my god.

Whose feet?? hahhaha xD

That's probably the end of the trip... =) This langkawi trip was a really relaxing trip.. we had no rush and we took all our time arranging our activities... And It turn out to be a really successful one.. =) Really looking forward to another one.. and really miss those times =] ... Was totally exhausted back home.. when we were all broke ... We took all the public transport there is in KL just to find our way home... cheapest way home... haha.. kk thats all for today =)

Trips!...

sorry the past few days.. wasnt really free to update .. went to Port Dickson on friday and back on sunday.. Was suppose to come back on saturday to go for Yi May's party.. promised her. But my dad couldnt come to Pd to fetch me back.. so i didnt manage to go for the party and stayed in Pd for another day. PD was fun. Lots of things happened. haha.. Well... lotS... many unpredictable things happened.. haha. Some things didnt turn up well.. but the trip was fun overall. K let me tell in details bout the trip when i get those photos from yoe and jo first ya..

K today i went back to Help to help out CF. We gave out free drinks, bookmarks and also flyers bout CF meeting which is held every Friday. The objective is to promote CF to other students in Help. It turn out to be a successful one. But i had left Help earlier and couldnt help them clean up and pack things up. Sorry ya tung.. erm I went to KLCC today. had to meet my mum there later around 4.30 then met some of my frens from TARC. Swee, Juh Yan, Miow... erm long tme din see them alrd.. except Swee la.. It was fun. I joined them for a movie. HULK. the movie was kinda okay la.. but it was cold in the cinema! haha.. thats probably becoz i m wearing a short pants.. then one incident happened... Inside the cinema there's no line. My mum couldnt get my phone... and that time was around 4.30 alrd. She end up calling all of my frens to ask where i was.. I kinda get scolded when i was out from the cinema... >< erm i didnt noe that in the cinema there's no line.. aih but thats not my fault rite.. aih nvm. It didnt spoil my day yet.. haha...
and yeah! i bought a book.. by Jodi Picoult " The Tenth Circle " it looks interesting.. but i haven start reading it yet.. Tomorrow.. tired today..

That's basically all for today... =) i'll write bout the PD trip in details when i got those pictures ^^

Had a great day today ... haha..

haha.. today went Mid V wif the 3 sakais.. haha.. and watched the Kungfu Panda.. haha. It was super super funny. I am recommending you all to watch.. Honest it was super funny. Wat more if i m sitting right beside the sakai Eunice.. gone.. her laughter is the loudest in the cinema.. haha. But it was super funny. " Master Oogui" i guess that's how u spell it. hahaha.. Guess what is it? haha.. as usual we decide on where to eat for about an hour.. HOUR. haha we will nvr ever come out wif a decision and .. the most common answers among us is " anything " when asked where to eat. haha. Finally we end up at Tony Romas again. Actually who decided it also i dunno.. we just walked and end up in front Tony Romas and coincidence that time they are offering set lunch. so yea we end up there. Sorry la no pics.. then we went for that Kungfu Panda. haha AND one more thing.. We met a man who is Abdul Samad Said according to tung. hahaha. The first time we saw that man is when he is sitting down on one of the benches reading newspaper. haha Tung told us he was A.Samad Said. He was not la. But he looks like him coz of his white long beard. Then guess wat. When we came out from cinema we saw him walking out of the same Cinema.. hahahaha. A.Samad Said watch Kungfu Panda also? hahaha... Probably he is trying to get inspiration from that movie for his next poem? hahaha.. tung.. tung.. hahahaha..
Then we went to Char Chan Teng for tea.. then went bk. It was fun .. long time din see that sakai Eunice also.. still no change.. Still laff and laff non stop.. No wonder her friends plan to make a special device for her that can generate electricity from her laughing.. haha.. Great idea.
There goes one day of my holidays.. Time flies u see.. That sakai have exam so wont be meeting out again soon.. But wish you luck in your exams. Dun get ur scholarship revoked! Good Luck.. =) okay la have to do things alrd.. write again later =) will add a few pics of the Click 5 consert later..

In Genting..

Finally finished my exams! YAY.. haha.. lol erm finished my exams last 2 days and now enjoying my holidays.. 1 month.. o.O i think its a bit too long la.. It'll probably fun for the first two weeks but then.. after 3rd week.. i'll probably bored to death.. well now i m in Genting.. Tonight is the Click Five consert.. i'll be watching.. hehe.. now i m in starbucks sitting down .. nth to do so blog lor.. erm this holidays..

wat plans do i have? erm.. I'll be going to langkawi.. and Pd i guess. hectic holidays.. But hope i enjoy it.. wish i do.. Erm.. i went to CF yesterday.. and it was fun.. met a lot of new friends. erm they went genting today also.. hope they have safe journey yea..

okay la.. rui en if u are reading.. plan nx week la k? then let me know.. okay la i hv to go into room alrd.. =) cya all will update again

A Random one..

Hmm.. just suddenly felt like writing out what's in my mind.. just sitting down with my chemistry notes in front of me and my laptop.. well i havent been studying much these few days.. so i guess i hv to really buck up. cant lazy anymore. aih.
Actually Erm i wanted to reply a comment in friendster to one of my fren.. but i dunno something just stopped me when I began to type my first sentence. Then i just stopped typing and decided not to reply that comment.. uh weird. Its alrd 2.06am. and i m not feeling sleepy yet coz i drank coffee... i msged a few ppl but no one replied.. guess all slept alrd.
What should i do to fill up all my time during the hols? shuld i give tuition to my mum's fren and earn some money ? just an option.. hmm... or just relax ? aihh..
okay .. i shuld continue studying..

I already made my choice...

This is something different from the previous post.. even though both of it is written on the same day and same time..

I am still thinking bout the post i wrote last time.. the one where i said..

" sometimes it's worth it if you sacrifice for the one you love just for the sake of his/her good. "

yea it is obviously a good thing to do if you're doing it for the sake of his good.. but its really easy to say..
Think about it.. to give up something that you really love.. or something that you might already have in hand.. you just have no choice but to release it.. you have to lie to him/her that you didnt want anything to do with the person anymore but actually in deep in your heart you love that person .. you care about that person.. but yet you just have let it go... so that you wont hurt the person .. so that the person will have a better life.. Is it really worth it letting the person go and let yourself and the person suffer... ? You really wish to tell the person what's actually happening and have the person by your side.. but you just cant do so and so because of that.. time and time you shut him down again and again when the person tries to approach you and to find out what's happening. .... Does it actually worth it?
Or by sharing the pain and the hardships together with the person eventhough knowing that there'll be no future between you two? that you cant give the person happiness in life? By sharing with the person .. you'll not have to suffer the loss of each other.. and probably go thru the pain and problems together? Which way is better?

Is sacrificing yourself for the sake of the person's future a better way or is by sharing all the probs and pain wif the person is a better way? I still couldnt really find my answer on which is better...

but for me... If i ever end up in a situation where I have to make a choice between the either ways ... I already know which way I'll be taking.. and i have no doubt about my choice..

I believe that it doesnt matter whether the length of time that both of you are together is long or short or whether both of you will live long together a not.. the thing that matters the most is the time both of you spent together.. That's most important. The happy moments and all the obstacles that both of you had passed thru together is what matters most. There's no use if both of you spend most of the time together but not being happy. You can never bring away a person .. but you can always bring happy memories that both of you spent together... That's what I always believed.

Something that i learnt .. today..

No matter how hard or how suffering are you .. or no matter how bad is the thing or situation that you're going to face .... They don't come to you for no reason. Each and every problems or hardships that you faced... every one of them come to you for a reason. No matter what the outcome is.. It just depend on how you face it..

After you had went thru everything... eventhough the outcome is the worst.., when you look back at it.. you will feel like everything was like a nightmare.. and you'll feel that there's still things for you to cherish.. and there you see brightness again. Its not that bad after all.. there's still smething worth for you to fight on for.. and that's the thing that will drive you on in your life..

Sorry ya...

sorry ya ppl... nowadays having exam thats why got no time updating =) i'll update again after my exams ^^

Not one of the Sunday that i enjoyed...

I just felt that... I actually doesnt have anything... even after so long and after putting so many efforts. This is not the first time for something like this. I had experienced it many times already. Time and time i didnt give up and yet i try again. And time and time again i put hope in it even after how many times of failures. The worse thing is that every single time.. i couldnt manage to pass through the last stage. Why am i always given the hope at the beginning by succeeding in first few stages but end up empty handedness? Am i always this unlucky or am i just not qualified enough to get it? If i am not qualified then why give me hope at the beginning?
I m just fed up of it.. Seriously.! I dont have mood at all now. Tomorrow i am having my maths mock. I just dont feel like touching the books anymore. I really feel like talking to someone now.. but i dunt know how..

Wish everyday could be Friday...

Its so nice if everyday is like Friday.. The end of the weekdays, ... ending classes earlier, .. less stressful, and Going to Midvalley for movie.. Its okay rite to reward myself wif some entertainments after a whole week of suffering of mock exams... I guess its not too much la.. reasonable..hmm.

Erm.. Lets start with this morning.. Reached college kinda late and went to DSA. Had a pool game with Hyqal. I lost. Probably too long din touch the cue stick adi. Had been playing too much foosball nowadays. Then Kenny came in to DSA and said .. THERE'S NO MATHS. haha MDm. Lin is not teaching today.. haha sorry la tung din manage to msg u in time to tell you about that.. coz i didnt noe u msged me. Since she's not teaching, so i went in to class late. erm.. didnt had mood doing any work.. Brain's just not working. After maths went for lunch in Heaven.. (Kieth's Heaven ) haha yup for ppl who dunt know what's "Heaven", well its the restaurant.. Rice Bowl. Heard of it? erm he named it that becoz according to him, the duck rice is fantastic there. o.O .. k ignore it..

Then, we had our chem class. Get bk my chem results.. It isnt good at all.. expected higher, but It was actually my fault. I didnt remember her notes properly.. Yea will read more.. Promise. Cant get so low again. Then afterthat, we went mid v for Iron man. Well, the movie is quite nice and it was pretty interesting but we were all almost freezing. The plot of the movie was nice. I'll watch 2nd time if got chance.. Then we had lunch in an Irish Restaurant. I dunt really noe wats the name of the restaurant actually but the food there was nice.

haha.. we played some games there.. dunno wat police, murderer and the spy. sumting like tat. And tung, I gave up la on the counting sheeps. haha how to count?? teach me..
I enjoyed today. Had been locking myself in room for days to study and yet didnt get good grades. Sad..

And ya today i went to CF. It was nice. Its my third time there. I felt comfortable everytime when I am there. And today's session was really meaningful. Why should we do services? And every lil things we do everyday in our life is for who? Who are we doing it for? Ourselves? We had about 10 mins in silence thinking what can we dedicate to God in our lives. It was really meaningful. I am sorry if i use the wrong words. But it was really a meaningful session.

Okay I'll stop writing here. Thx for reading. Bye..

Exams exams exams....

Hey.. Here i am again writing.. It has been quite some time i wrote the last post.. and yea hey Rui En ! u just noe about my blog :)
erm.. yup today i m writing here again wif exams mood in my brain again.. I am having exam tomorrow till thursday.. horrible. Physics unit 1 and 2 / Chem unit 1 and 2 mocks. in 4 days... gone. I seriously have no idea how to divide or manage my time in preparing for the 4 papers... is either i will screw up 2 papers or i will screwed up all ... aih. aih the real exam is coming.. Pressure.. and the jpa results coming out also.. Hope for the best.. but lets think logically .. if i ever get it .. i mean IF.. i reali dunt know i will accept it a not.. 1st thing- i think i choose the wrong field.. i dunt realli want biotech engineering actually .. i was so stupid to press that .. aih. Honestly i prefer doctor.. but i dun think my parents will encourage me taking doc also.. so yea. 2nd thing- i'll miss here.. and i alrd started my A-Lvls here. i noe its stupid for not accepting if i ever ever get... but aih dunno la. I am just dreaming.. sry ya.. I mean if i get.. which i probably wont get.. Think about it later la.. exam now.. i m so dead la.. i haven finish all my revision.. great >< aih and i m like so restless here.. haha And i slept at 5am yesterday! haha amazing rite? nah i didnt woke up late.. i woke up at 10.30.. (thats not very late la) today erm.. i'll sleep at 3am =)

okay other things... I am kinda getting used to it in my new house here.. its been a week and more I am here.. lesser TV coz i dun hv TV .. aih. hv to go upstairs to watch.. And yup if ever anyone want to go to HELP prom... i have a ticket here.. and i m selling it.. It will definitely be cheaper than rm130 which they are selling now..

aih thats probably all i want to say this time.. gd luck to those who are also sitting for their exams..! bye ! and elaine gd luck for ur sejarah. BYE

Frustrated... but glad its all over...

Yea.. the previous post i said i had my exams.. LAN exams and my mocks.. and now its all over.. Just had my Bio and Maths C2 exam today.. kinda relieved that its over but I am frustated at the same time.. I did a very stupid and careless mistake.. Studied for so long and slept only 3 hours just to study for this Bio mock exam but it turn out to be a horrible one..I barely have enuff time finishing it as it is only like 1 hour paper and there's like 9 ques in it.. each ques has its own questions.. Guess what? When teacher began to walk to collect the paper from us.. I was finishing my last sentence for a long question.. and then i realized behind of the ques still got 2 more paper..so i flipped .. I SAW THERE IS A QUESTION 9 behind.. i was like.. OMG! i didnt noe there is another ques behind the last page.. i was still checking over my paper and change the answers without knowing i had not answer finish all the questions.. GOSH. There is no chance of answering adi as she was like standing right in front of my table.. all i could do was just to stare at the question and just hand it over.. aih.. It was like so frustating ... wasting all my time studying and not sleeping just to read bio and ended up like that jsut becoz of my stupid carelessness.. but i admit i was blur and super tired today morning.. the exam was like 8am.. and i slept at 3am and woke up at 6am.. aih.. SO ppl thats the consequences of last minute study..but cant help it la.. I am like that.. k lets talk bout other thing.. I m going to hv my Physics and Chem mock nx week.. gonna die..

Well, what about me... I just shifted to a new house in Taman Bukit Segar Jaya 1. Had been here for like 5 days. Kind of used to it adi. But most of the renovation is not done yet.. so have to live without my living room.. Anyone who lives here pls tell me ya! so i can come and pay a visit.. haha and yup all of u are welcomed to my open house ( God knows when is it.. haha ) I'll update all of you .. ^^ erm nth much happened besides this.. coz have been busy shifting around and exms.. so dont hv much time for things to happen.. and Yea! i am improving in my foosball.! haha..

I went bak to school dat day.. saw a lot of teachers and juniors.. Looking at school.. really miss school.. Cant go back to those time where we sit in class and chit chat... and play around.. I really miss those times.. Aih. So ppl enjoy ur time in school.. you would realli miss school when u're in college.. I know when you're in school that time.. you will really feel boring and dont feel like going to school.. and wish u're in college rite? but let me tell you .. college life isn't that fun.. ( yea but i have to admit it is at times xD ) at times u really wish you wouldnt grow so fast.. sorry crapping but its true! ask all the ppl who is in college.. They'll tell you that for sure.. That's why i always like to go back to school and have a look ..

Okay I'll stop writing here.. Time to rest.. =) cya ppl... Before that. Here's some pictures took in college.. only a few.. sorry yea.. hehe

haha... this is the most famous game in Help.. and its not only the guys you noe! the girls are pro at it also.. o.O erm.. But i m kinda addicted to it.. but its fun honestly ... Not like hitting the ball around.. and score.. but they have tactics and its really nice. ^^

Erm that's me with vinshern in the bus.. I wasn't ready.. haha..

Something that's really meaningful..

When you love a person, the things that you want the most is that the person to be happy.
Sometimes you just had to let go eventhough how much you love the person..

Letting the person go and seeing her happy and to make sure that she is not making a wrong choice.. really means a lot..

Sometimes is just hard.. but Its not wrong letting him or her go just to see them happy..

Its hurting.. but it definitely worth it if you can see the person you really love being happy..

When you really love a person, that doesnt mean you have to be with the person.. but instead thinking for him or her whats best for them. Including seeing them achieve in life and getting a happy life or even being with someone else who can brings her happiness. Feel for them and be happy for them, think for them.

Sometimes.. you even have to pretend that you moved on already just so that the person you love wouldnt know about it and to make them feel comfortable and go on with their lifes.

And when there's and opportunity .. really have a think on it... If its something which you really want.. and something which you had long for.. Go for it.. dont Deny. You will be the one who end up suffering.. Never let go an opportunity if you had it..

Not too emo xD

Haha.. i have been receiving lots complain bout too emo.. xD haha well.. Guess what? I am going to have my First term EXAM coming! haiyo.. haha on 24th may.. if not mistaken.. but lets look on the brightside.. I HAVE LIKE 1 whole month of holidays! muahaha.. isnt it fantastic? haha life in college isnt that bad after all.. and I am SO SO looking forward for it.. after the one month hols.. i will have my 3 weeks break in Aug again! haha.. Great.. but probably i'll get bored. So lets come out wif ideas.. trips! kk.. exam first.. =) xw me got not much pics to update you adi o. erm wait la i'll put in some pics took when i was in mid v that day.. That nellie took one.. erm. And yea ppl.. my house phone's changing .. I am shifting to Taman Bukit segar nx week.. i also dunno which day.. i guess it's thursday.. so well do come for my open house yea =) if there is la.. haha. erm Today its my last class for my Lan subject Malaysian Studies.. Mr. Al.. so gonna miss him.. He's dam funny and let me tell you.. You'll nvr ever sleep in his class. haha uh no fight wif our moral lecturer.. x.x our moral lecturer is sososososo boring.. And today again i had my fusball game.. wel nth much to update you all wif .. well a few pics =) here....

haha.. there's my pic of my dog.. well sleeping on the bed.. cool huh? haha.. he sleeps on the bed every morning.!! like wat ru jin says.. his life is even better than mine.. ( sad right )

well dont ask me who is beside .. haha.. shhh.. just ignore it. =)

Well this is Nellie!! erm thinny! haha.. erm that was very random actually.. was wif eme, han , yoe and her in mid v.. she loves Cam horing haha is it how u spelled it? erm yup that was during last friday .. in Char Chan Teng i guess..

kk thats.. all .. byezz

Tired day..

Hey ppl!.. why tired? o.O went futsal today.. wif Satya, Thush, Wei yu, Timmy, Alex, Y.hoo well.. its only 7 ppl.. haha how to play futsal wif 7 ppl rite? well we managed.. and it was quite a fun one.. hv to play bare footed coz my shoe.. ( passed away ) haha.. and now.. my feet ache.. well today nth much happen.. as its only like 7 pm now. Emo time haven come ^^ hehe.. waiting parents for dinner.. and yea yesterday went pavilion wif my mum.. i saw Su Ching there wif her bf... well if u all dunt know who is she, she's my senior.. she still looks the same.. didnt change much.. haha nic.. is not that i like pavilion la. Is that coz my mum wants to go so she asked me along so i followed. There's actually nth much in pavilion.. things too exp. But yea managed to have a great lunch at a Japanese restaurant. ( well i actually forgot wats the name of the shop..) but it was nice.. the deco and the food.. erm at nite i went to pub.. erm not pub la .. so called bistro wif my parents. they hv to meet some of their friends.. I was so so BOred there. All the time was playing pool.. Glad that there's a pool table there. Bk at home around 2.30am? i think.. erm and i signed a petition today.. To ppl who read my blog.. if u are free.. spare a few mins and sign this petition ya. Thanks! Its regarding the rights of the artists.. Here.. http://www.petitiononline.com/at1357/petition.html

Well today i read my horoscope in the star news paper.. Actually i dont believe it but.. dunno why today too free and have a look on it.
It says that - Just when you were about to let go some long-held dreams, along comes a guardian angel to remind you why you had such high hopes in the first place. So what to do ? Give up or go on? Trust the voice within. There lies your answers.
It was quite true.. But yet i still could not find my answers... To give up or go on? What to do? I always tell myself that its worth it to go on and that's what i always wanted.. but to be realistic.. and to hear what other ppl had said to me.. I doubt myself.. To give up? but again and again.. i could not give up. And again I will end up Going on..

kay.. going for dinner.. thanks for reading ! and Remember to sign the petition =)

Another day...

Erm.. well nowadays dunno why always feel like posting.. erm.. today's friday classes ended at 12pm .. they planned to go mid v after that. yea be4 that i went to planet movers.. then while waiting for nel and tung.. i went spinky.. Had my fusball game.. well kinda addicted to it.. ( shuldnt get addicted.. ) uh.. but yea then finally we left help at 3.. ate lunch at kim gary.. Dunno why didnt feel realli nice, was a bit emoing... Sorry ya han, nel, yoe, and tung.. erm but was okay after it.. then han asked the shop Dragonfly in mid v regarding the .. tattoo... LOL .. it was expensive! uh.. rm300 for like 3 words.. no way i m getting one.. then went for movie.. Erm actually till now i also dunno wats the movie called.. the title of the movie.. hehe.. Tung didnt join us for the movie.. yea. The movie was okay la.. was quite mysterious but it was a long one. I didnt manage to finish the movie.. i left during the ending becoz was rushing home.. and to go bak to help to get Sakai the book.. haha. I forget to buy for her twice adi.. if forget again.. she'll kill me! nah guess she wont read it.. so nvm lah . haha .. well now I am kinda relaxing after a whole tiring day.. haha and eme! i'll guess your tricks.. the one u gave us during the lunch.. yea. okay.. signing out.. Cya. And to ppl who actually reads my blog.. sorry for the boring deco.. >< hope you all dont mind.. byezz...

Normal day i guess...

Picture of me for my Poster...


well.. here i m again.. posting my 2nd post.. erm today's thursday. Just came bk not long ago.. got LAN - moral studies.. watching american idol actually . today's one is the American idol gives bk.. Actually seeing those unfortunate kids in Africa and Us.. who suffer Aids.. or those really poor families.. I felt really pity for them.. Seriously would hv called in to AI to donate to them if i can.. Aih.. erm ok ok .. today in college.. nth much happened.. OH yea .. i skipped class today.. haha.. Maths class. Erm its because we took a bit too much time eating and then.. it was raining quite heavily .. hope she would understand.. but yea. Today, i played fusball.. and i realli enjoyed it. I was okay today.. i guess but i m kinda emoing now.. Just thinking back.. I realli wish i could say out.. today u look okay.. was just frust u didnt reply my sms.. but I am fine.. i think. okay la tats all for today.. lights off!.

Pictures..

Me and Jay before Speech...

Well I dont have much pictures to update u all.. but yea.. here is one of that.. if i do have will post.. =)

My first post...

Hey.. this is my first post of my this blog.. Well why m I having this blog? That's because I think the best way is to write out.. since i got no where to let it out..

erm.. well this whole week really had been a tough week.. not only this week.. it had been going since last 2 to 3 weeks.. things really didnt went well and I was really stressed up.. the first thing that was really frustating was the election for the student council.. Me, Jamie and Nellie managed to pass through the interview. We went on to the campaign week.. It was really tough.. but to be honest it was realli a new experience.. printing posters and distributing flyers.. My first time.. and just because of the campaign... and doing posters .. i didnt manage to catch up much on my studies.. I missed quite a lot of my lessons and wasnt really paying much attention on my studies.. For the first time, I ponteng my class - Maths.. ooo haha Mdm. Lin's class.. but guess she wouldnt mind though.. actually didnt distribute much during that time also.. part of the time we went to DSA and play fusball.. lol. yea.. so well everything had already passed.. and yea speaking of happy moments.. after the elections.. few of us.. Eun, eme, jay and me.. ( dun ask why i m the only guy ... lols. ) went to mid v. actually it meant to be a celebration for jay's burfday.. but well after the election results.. guess jay and I didnt hv much mood adi.. but it ended up to be fun.. Jay was surprised ... wif the celebration.. and it probably cheered up the rest of her day. and yea we ate in Tony Romas.. ( i guess that's how u spelled it ) haha.. erm and then the nx few days nth much happened.. Busy again. but this time not anything to do wif elections or wtv things anymore but studies.. Gosh. Exams and mocks.. erm recently i just had my bio and physics exam.. erm Ms. Foong just scolded us today for our Bio.. just hope i m not one of the lowest.. Physics was quite okay today.. Okay ~ only . now actually i m reading my Chems.. Mocks on Wed.. my god.
Well .. these are basically all the "external" things that happened.. talking bout the "internal" .. it isnt any better.. I seriously dunno what am I hoping for.. I just wish that the day where i can say out wat i want to say.. But honestly it would be lying if i say i m not hoping for anything.. i do.. but at the same time i know it wouldnt happen. I know you all might just tell me to erm.. leave it or just stop hoping.. but it's easy to be said..! its hard to be done.. aih. Well, today i heard that one of my fren just broke up.. Well to you my fren, if you are reading, - Be strong and Do whatever that you think is best.. No one knows whats right for you.. but only yourself. Chill ya -
Okay probably I'll end here.. its long. o.O I'll write more nx time.. To make it a habit of updating.. Yoe remind me yea.. Lol.. I'll try to put pics, if i can..